Death Whispered a Lullaby

Which way are you going? The left one where there is nothing right? Or the right one, where there is nothing left?

It Hurts To Be Away From The Family Now That I Realise How Important They Are In My Life. Why Am I Here? I Want To Make My Parents Proud, But In Exchange I Sacrifice Time Spent With Them And Instead Suffer With All Shits Here. In The First Place Do I Even Deserve To Be Here? Or Am I Here Just Because Of A Stupid Award For Shooting Well? Honestly I Don't Even Know How To Lead, Needless To Say Lead The Section/Platoon In Battles And Fights. There Is Somewhere Within Me That Is Fearful; Fearful Of Leading, Fearful Of Being In Charge, Fearful Of Having The Responsibility.

I Just Want To Be Free, To Be Me. Sometimes I Feel That Happiness Is Relinquished From Inside Of Me; Just A Hollow Shell Waiting To Me Cracked Open And Turned To Nothingness.

Probably I Really Don't Deserve To Be Here. And Yet I Have To Bear With It, To Show Them To Make Them Proud, But I Feel Miserable. =/


In A Bit.

Aping my soul,
You stole my overture,
Trapped in God’s program,
Oh I can’t escape

Who are we?
Where are we?
When are we?
Why are we?
Who are we?
Where are we?
Why, why, why?

I can’t forgive you,
And I can’t forget

Who are we?
Where are we?
When are we?
Why are we in here?

Rise above the crowds
Wade through toxic clouds
Breach the outer sphere
The edge of all our fears rest with you
We are counting on you,
It's up to you

Spread our codes to the stars,
You must rescue us all
Spread our codes to the stars,
You must rescue us all

Tell us
Tell us your final wish,
Now we know you can never return
Tell us
Tell us your final wish,
We will tell it to the world

Let's start over again
Why can't we start it over again?

Just let us start it over again

And we’ll be good
This time we’ll get it...
We'll get it right

It's our last chance to forgive ourselves



In A Bit.

'The Life & The Quality Of Relationships We Have today Are A Direct Result Of Our Behaviour. Our Behaviour Is A Direct Result Of Our Beliefs. Our Beliefs Are Actually Reminders Of  "The Results Of Our Past Experiences," Embedded Deep In Our Subconscious Mind. The Key To Our Future Lies In The Ability To Somehow Alter The Content Of Our Subconscious Mind In Our Favour.'



Someone Anyone Save Me Please.

Bell rings for a lonely soul, it has borrowed the voice of death.
Does it hurt or want it well, when the count of our destiny.
Stop thinking it is difficult anyway, you may take one day at a time.
Vandraren have nowhere to go, if he goes at the end of the battle.

Life is so short (Life is so short)
Oh! son of the north (Oh son of north)
You'll find your peace
At the end of your journey

Now I open my eyes and what do I see
A rainbow in the moonlight, pipers calling me
They say don't be afraid and asked me to follow
You've been expected, so forget your sorrow!

In A Bit.

Ah, The Sky Is Pouring Out Sorrows On My Behalf.

Comes To The Point Whereby Im Starting To Feel The Importance Of Being Idle, And The Dreadfulness Of Heading Back To Camp. Yes, Im Going Back To Camp Tomorrow, And Will Be Gone For Another 3 Weeks Of Confinement. Second Yes, Im Posted To OCS. And The Third Yes Goes Out For 9 Months Of Training. =/   Lets Just Hope I Manage to Commission And Get The Rank. Nevertheless I'd Definitely Do My Best.

Just Finished Packing 90% Of The Stuff For Camp Tomorrow. Man! I Just Came Back From Thailand And In Just A Moment Of 2 Days Have To Go Back Into Military Life Once Again. But, I Know I Can Do It, I Know I Can Adapt I Must!

All These Events Plus The CDs I've Listened To Today, Tells Me Something. I HAVE TO GET THINGS DONE TO ACHIEVE MY DREAMS. BMT Has Proven That With Effort, Results Will Be Shown. Definitely Goes The Same With The Business. AND ITS TIME TO GET THINGS DONE!  I MUST I CAN I WILL I AM! Furthermore, Now That I've Learnt The Importance Of Being Idle, The More I Want To Be Free!!!!!!!!!!!

For Now, I'm Back To My Silent Retreat. I Will Be Back, And Make Myself Known.



In a Bit.

Wow! Can't Believe I Made It Being The Coy Best Shot! Great Experience At The Range!!! Inspired To Be A Sniper Like The 'Shooter' Movie =)))

BMT Is Almost Coming To An End Now, With 2 Weeks To Go. Damn I Will Definitely Miss The Guys In Bunk With All The Nonsense And Jokes We Pull Around With Us Everyday. Damn I Must Mention This : Jun Yang Is Really Cute With The Penguin Thingy!!! HILARIOUS!!! HAHAHHA! Haha Recently Played Loads Of Magic The Gathering And Having The YUGIOH Craze In Bunk! Damn Its Fun, Though Always Got Ganged By Them HaHA!

This Weekend Is Rather Simple. Spent Most Of My Time At Home And Not Having Late Nights Out Having Ice Cream, Movie Or Supper. Been Rather Exhausting This Week. Going Back In At 1930!!

In A Bit.

Hope You Had A Great And Memorable 17th Birthday.

Ah Wonderful Friday I Had.

Lead The Entire Taurus Coy For Last Parade, For Nothing But Seer Luck Of Being The New Appointed Platoon 2 IC Of The Week. How Nice!!! =/

Gonna Learn The Commands And Stuff. Tamiflu Is Making Me Depressed HAHA!

Nevertheless Had A Great Night's Out Shopping At Vivo After Book Out On Friday!! Finally Got Myself An Everlast Singlet!

Went WWW With My Cousins And Had A Splendid Time With Everyone. For Once I Feel Alive. (Don't Get Me Wrong, Army Is Still Super Fun)




In A Bit.

What An Awesome Weekend!! Hahaha!! And Today's The Day I'm Back To Camp Again! Damn It, Didn't Get To Catch Transformers Over This Weekend!! Probably The Next!!! Hahahaha!! My Field Pack Is Sooooooooo Gonna Be Flooded With Stuff!! Hahaha Bought Many Things For Camp During This First Book Out!!! =))) Well, It's Time To Embrace Another Week Of Fun In The Army =p Army Is Fun!!!



In A Bit.

Headspin - Rise Electric

All I want to say
is you’re the sattellite in my life
You don’t have to lie
You don’t have to cry anymore

Lost inside your eyes
The vision never dies
Oh just take my hand
or float and never land

Then I hear you say
“Let’s live for the moment this time”
Then you want to keep me forever
Why don’t you just make up your mind

You make my head spin
You make my head spin
Why, why do you
You make my head spin
You make my head spin
Why, why

You love to build me up
just to tear me down
Wouldn’t it be nice
if we found paradise someday

Then I hear you say
“Let’s live for the moment this time”
Then you want to keep me forever
Why don’t you just make up your mind

You make my head spin
You make my head spin
Why, why do you
You make my head spin
You make my head spin
Why, why

Did I hear you say
you wanna be alone
Or was it a mistake
How would we ever know
I can’t hear you scream
You wanna be alone
I can’t hear you scream at me
scream at me

I’m not perfect
I’m not perfect
No, no one is
I’m not perfect
I’m not perfect

You make my head spin
You make my head spin
Why, why do you
You make my head spin
You make my head spin

Did I ever mean something
Did I ever mean something to you
Did I ever mean something
Did I ever mean something to you

In A Bit.

Wow, Its Been 2 Weeks. From 'Friends Page' And Other Blogs, Seems Like Alot Of Stuff Happened During The 2 Weeks!! Wahahah Which Is Great. Lessons And Experience Are Acquired And Learnt Everyday, Everyone Is Moving On And Further Into Their Life. Army Is Great, Having Blessed To Be In Taurus Company Platoon 2 Section 4, With The Bunk Mates And All. Great 2 Weeks I Had =) Nothing Much To Say Right Now So....


In A Bit.

The Past Few Days Were Spectacular!! Thank You Everyone For Contributing In The Little Of Things That Made My Last Few Civillian Moments Wonderful And Unforgettable. Now That It Is The Eve Of The Enlistment Date, I'm Starting To Feel Abit Troubled, Despite Still Being Totally Excited For The Entire Millitary Experience. I Certainly Do Hope Everyone Is Safe And Sound Doing Whatever They Are Accomplishing Over Here. =) Not To Worry I Would Be Back!! 

In A Bit 



Would The Stars Shine Again?

The Laughter Of Children...
The Whisper Of A Breeze Through Alfalfa Grass...
The Lapping Of Gentle Waves On A Sun-Kissed Beach...
The Soft Velvet Of A Lover's Sigh...

Tonight, I'm Once Again Here To Share Something.

'Many People Become Complacent With Their Current Situations. They Become So Comfortable In A Particular Job Or Relationship Or At A Particular Salary Or Level Of Responsibility That They Become Reluctant To Make Any Changes At All, Even For The Better. The Comfort Zone Is A Major Obstacle To Ambition, Desire, Determination, And Accomplishment. People Who Get Stuck In A Comfort Zone, If It's Combined With Learned Helplessness Are Almost Impossible To Help In Any Way. Don't Let This Happen To You.' -Goals by Brian Tracy 

With That, I'm Off.

In A Bit.

Learn From Yesterday, Live For Today, Hope For Tomorrow.

Spectacular Week I Had!! Finally Graduated From Temasek Polytechnic!! The Event Was BRILLIANT!!! With The Photo Taking Sessions With The People In The School!! Hahaha! Sad Thing Was During The Ceremony, The Crowd Wasn't As High As The Crowd From Summer Conference!!! Hahahaha Totally Different!! People From Summer Conference Was Excited About Their Future!!! Don't Know About The Students Though!!! Hahaha I Was Desperately Trying To Contain My Excitement!!!!

Anyways, This Really Is The Beginning To Another Chapter Of Our Lives!!! Guys, No Matter How Fulfilling Or Bleak You All May Think About Your Future, Its The Journey That Counts, Not The Destination.

3 Years In The Making, And I Learnt Alot From All Of You. I'm Blessed To Know Everyone And Thank You For Being In My Life!! =))

For Those Out There Who Are Lost Or Out Of Track, I Offer You The One Stop Solution: Goals

'Living Without Clear Goals Is Like Driving In A Thick Fog. No Matter How Powerful Or Well Engineered Your Car, You Drive Slowly, Hesitantly, Making Little Progress Even On The Smoothest Of Roads. Deciding Upon Your Goals Clears The Fog Immediately And Allows You To Focus And Channel Your Energies And Abilities. Clear Goals Enable You To Step On The Acelerator Of Your Own Life And Race Ahead Rapidly Toward Achieving More Of What You Really Want.' -Taken From Goals! By Brian Tracy.

Those Who Think This Makes Sense And Want To Enrich Their Life, Go Read The Book And De-mystify The Reasons To Whats Stopping You From Making The Leap Toward A Better Life. 

In A Bit. 

Hello Everyone. Firstly, I Would Like To Tell Those Friends Out There Whom I Have 'Forsaken'. Its Not Something I Like To Do, But Something That I Have To Do. NOW! It Has Been Said, 'You Can't Choose The Environment You Are Borned In, But You Are Responsible For How You Die (Rich, Poor, Dignity, Shame etc.)'

Army In 3 Weeks, Damn I'm Anticipating!!!

In A Bit.

Woah, Took A Shirt Out From The Luggage From The Last Thailand Trip. Still Had The Scent Of The Laundry Detergent On It. Smells Like Memories!!

We Ought To Eradicate 'Excuses'!!!!!

In A Bit.

Maybe The Man Behind The Mask Doesn't Have Anything To Hide About, But Has Something To Protect.

In A Bit.

1 more week to OASIS!

Books, CD's, PASE Keeps Me Motivated All The Time, But It Doesn't Hold For Long. I Need To Write Down My GOALS! Problem: What Are They Specifically?


Talking to the songbird yesterday
Flew me to a place not far away
She's a little pilot in my mind
Singing songs of love to pass the time
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
I've never felt this love from anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone
A man can never dream these kind of things
Especially when she came and spread her wings
Whispered in my ear the things i'd like
Then she flew away into the night
Gonna write a song so she can see
Give her all the love she gives to me
Talk of better days that have yet to come
Never felt this love from anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone
She's not anyone

=))

Caught Butterfly Effect 1 and 2, Kept Me Thinking What Is Time? Does It Really Slip Away And Never To Return? Time...... Everyone Says We Do Not Have Enough Of It, But Are We Doing The Best Out Of It? I Ponder And Ponder......

I BOUGHT MY OASIS TICKETS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats All Folks! Off To Watch LIAM AND NOEL BLOW OFF MY MIND!

Forget About  Rorschach. Forget About Chopping Up Humans With The Chopper. I Was Banished To The Cruel World Of Truth While Still In The Daze Of WatchMen.

Missed A Phone Call, Missed An Opportunity To Work.

Nevertheless, I Must Try To Remain Positive In This Spoiled World. I Must Work Towards Building My Business! And As I Lament About The Loss Of Opportunity, I Look Ahead To See What My Future Will Be, And I Am Determined.

Why Be A Masked Man When You Can Be The Man With The Blue P****?

Nothing Beats Getting High With One Of The Awesome-mest Rock Bands Out There: Oasis!

Spending My Week Rocking With Tunes Like Wonderwall, Morning Glory, Where Did It All Go Wrong, ETC!

Should I Spend 100 Bucks To Watch Em' Live????????????

HAHA!

Kinda Pissed Off At Adults! Cant They Change Their Thinking And Perception??? Study Well, Good Grades, Good School, Good Job, Good Pay? Then Why Aren't My Neighbours And Relatives Millionaires Now? God Damn It! I Wanna Make A Change, To Give You Better Living To Cease Working So Hard For Money, And To Realise My Dream : KIAP KIAP SHOP! Please Understand That I Know Its Easy To Get Cheated And Stuff Like That In The Society, But I Will Pay Extra Attention And Caution!!!! Let Me Do This!

I Need A Little Time To Wake Up Wake Up!!! WELLLLLLLLLL?